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Interesting week

August 11th, 2008 at 07:58 am

So work has been a blur of project after project. My list is still long and I have one big one I'm still working on but I need to call some consult some specialists before I can continue.

The weekend went well, although there were scattered thunderstorms. I hadn't seen my BF for a while because he was travelling on business, but we got to spend the weekend togeter. Smile I'm helping him look for a condo to buy and it's time consuming because he's so picky. I'm happy for him though, he's finally going to move out of the house he rents with 4 other guys (can you say party house) and he'll have nice place to live.

He asked me to move in with him when he gets the new place. Can I confess that I was petrified! I'm afraid of commitment and he knows this. I've had a bad relationship in the past that made me shrink away from investing my heart so fully into someone else. I think that there should always be a piece of you that belongs to you. After you've given to your partner, your family, even your kids...there should always be a piece of you that you keep for yourself. In nurturing that piece, you won't feel unappreciated or run down. I mean no one can take of yourself like you can.

I say all of this to justify why I told him no. I'm not ready to leave my mom until I feel like she can fully function on her own. I could still pay for all her bills if I live with him, but then I would not have all the great times I'm having with her now. I also know that I would go back to my old ways if I lived with him. He makes waaayyyy more money than I do and he wants to pay for everything. So I'll eventually think it's okay to go shopping and I'll get into old habits. Plus I want to be on my own for a while. I don't want to have to depend on someone. I love him but I want to wait until I'm ready.

So as I was reading some of your blogs, I noticed people were doing online surveys for extra cash. I 've decided to be part of an ON CALL list to make extra cash. I get paid $2/hr when I am not at work (including weekends) to be avaialbe in case there is an emergency and I have to come in. So I'm getting paid even when I'm not at work! I also finished up a research study. It was about 2 weeks long and I'm expecting $200 for participation. I think I'll save half and put the other half towards bills. I'll look into survey sites and more short term research studies for extra income.

4 Responses to “Interesting week”

  1. gamecock43 Says:

    I love that you knoqw yourself enough, and are disciplined enough to do whats right in the long run for you. Slowing things down will not damage your relationship, so good for you! And I also think you must keep true to yourself to have a good relationship with someone else.

  2. luxlivingfrugalis Says:

    Very smart!! Now is a good time to be laying out your own goals in life and solidifying WHY you want to do certain things.

    Great job op to be paid to be on-call!

  3. spendinginsocal Says:

    You have a healthy way of looking at relationships! I completely know what you mean. It's so easy to lose yourself in a relationship.. even if it's someone you really care about, it's so important to have something of yourself still standing when there's a rough patch. I hope he still took it well and understood that it wasn't rejection...

  4. sillyoleme Says:

    You seem to have a very mature perspective for your relationship, congrats! I'm sure things will work out with your BF in due time.

    As far as surveys go - I'd recommend SurveySpot, OpinionOutpost, and maybe Your2Cents. The first two I've been able to get alot of invites & cash rewards from. Good luck!

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